Diujung sana masi tak ada warna

Hanya mampu tertunduk, kaki ini melemah, di ujung sana tak ada warna. Mampukah aku? berjalan dan tak berdaya, diujung sana masih tak ada warna. sampaikah aku? mata mencari, letih berputar, diujung sana masi tak ada warna. kaki ini dipaksa untuk menapakinya, hati ini terasa lelah, kenapa masi tak ada warna? Aku lelah... Dimana warna itu? Sulitkah bersahabat denganku? Apa aku terlalu egois sehingga tak pernah lagi menyapaku? Apa mungkin warna tak berjodoh denganku? diam and hilang.

That's all

Yeahh almost people said that happiness 'we' can create it. see 'we' it's mean not only 'I' but 'you and i'. When i try to reach something for us, I do it for us and i dont know, are you doing the same with me?! reach something for us?! do you think you honest do it for us? or you just try to cover everything that you also dont know what really happen? one more time i asked you, are you do it for us or you just do it's a pity? sometimes pity help but it's not long, when you fell tired it's not worthy anymore. how about I? I see them, they help me, i can accept, do you know why? when they fed up to help they can go like the want because 'i and them' is not 'we'. Happiness? where is it? i can not created, i can not find it, it is like the vanishing point, far..far away from me. Everything will change, i almost stop to make this happiness without you. If i'm lost, you're lost and the happiness between i and you will be lost and nothing. tell and honest, should i change my happiness with other? if yes, let me go, never come back, and stop seeking of me again. That's all

Mom

live for a life? Everything changed by time. I still remember about 10 years ago, I cant walked without mom beside me, I always cried at the time when mom was not around, felt so crazy. One day my sister brought me to her law, she promised i would be happy there. I just little girl that thought the place is paradise of toys. Mom just allow me went there. Finally we reached the village. i was so happy, I met so many friends there within 5 minutes but not far 3 hours, i looked around, seeking for mom, where is mom? where is mom? i was shouting at the time. my contemporary friend said, "you're mom in your home now". he said while smile with me. I saw him and asked, "Can you send back me to my house? I miss my mom so bad" and he just said, " don't worry you'll find here." night after night i always cried, i was sick, it was like half of my soul has gone. I don't know what exactly happened, but papa came and brought me met mom and suddenly i recovered again. Now, i feel like 10 years ago, miss mom, miss mom, but I'm alone here, nobody want to hear that I'm sick coz missing mom. How can I tell if everyone have their own problem, how I can express if they dont want to hear? how i tell if they really careless, how i they know that i'm really down now? how i tell that i'm fail now? how i tell if mom not see my eyes, who will erase this tearing. How i life without soul? just live a life without feel it :'(